struggling...

Wow, it's been awhile since I've written here...

I know that a few years down the line, I will giggle and enjoy these posts... That's what happened with my xanga account! It's such a great tool to keep in touch with friends too... and a great prayer tool.

I guess I was more reluctant to share things on here... but it's mostly Hannah Love that reads these... so I have nothing to worry about! :P

Lately I've just been struggling a lot with trusting in God. I know that His Will for my life is perfect and most fulfilling, but why do I want to stray away and try things on my own? It's the same recurring struggle again and again. My journey here is a short one and I want to live it right. I want to hold onto the candle with the burning flame... I want this light to guide my path. I want to walk with Jesus, not tun away. My prayer ever since project was for God to use me in my own home.. but lately I just feel like I'm hurting my parents more than anything.

These are some burdens on my heart. I'm going to pray and fast about this. Would you also pray with me... for me?